Pissed as Hell

It’s been a while since I have written anything on my blog . Today I am mad at myself. Never have I feel defeated and dejected like today. Yesterday I got a phone call from a graduate school admission recruiter telling me that my application is incomplete and top it off the deadline has passed. WTF? I thought I have submitted all the required forms, recommendations and test results on time. Apparently the stupid of me have forgotten to take the TOEFL exam. WTF Do I need TOEFL for? I asked the pleasant sounding recruiter on the other line. I have completed all my post high school education in the USA. Apparently this graduate school needs a TOEFL exam for all foreign born student, No exception even if you did all your schooling in the USA from kindergarten to college. I could feel the pressure in my head building up as I screamed on the recruiter. I have pleaded and tried to explain it to her that this was the first time I heard of such utter nonsense. I cried so hard that my eye balls were about to lyses in their sockets. I pleaded to the recruiter that I will do everything they want me to do. Just give me another chance not to miss this application cycle. These will throw off all my planned strategies. This will mean that I will have to stay one more year out of school. WTF ? What will I do now? Sit another year out of school. And be a miserable fellow while my classmates head of to the graduate school of their choice or even be happy with their jobs?

Don’t they know that age is my enemy here? I am getting older. I don’t want to be in my thirties and still be in school. Also this will mean that my African trip would have to be cancelled as I have to think whether to take some other entrance exam like the Graduate school management t test (GMAT).I don’t see myself working in the corporate America. The little experienced I gained since my graduation tells me that corporate America is not a place for me. I work for a fortune five hundred company. And I hate every moment of it. I am pissed at myself now.My whole plan of attack has been disrupted. The only console the recruiter could offer me was to plead with the admission committee about my ignorance of the required test. WTF? You think the admission committee has a time for me? They have three hundred people applying for a class of sixty positions. They might as well toss away the incomplete application than having a stack of applicants on their desk tops. For every open slot there are three applicants who are competing for. The only console the recruiter has offered me was to wait and see what will happen and that I should cross my fingers. I need all the prayer that I could get. Let me stop here before I crush my laptop.