Those of you who might shudder to remember the old girlfriend story might interweave along with this story. Let me warn you that what I must now relate might be tedious to you. No I did not go out with her on that faithful date, but I did go out with her numerous other times. Last night was one of them. I have come to terms that I am weaving along with my heart this time. My spirit was high last night. I have wondered many times what kind of a woman I needed in my life. Whenever I think about women, a feeling of pain and sorrow invades my body at every angle. I curse under the bed every night, why did I have to live in this wretched life of mine? Perhaps you might be saying under your breath now “poor guy! What must have driven him to that extent? Don’t worry I found the secret of women from my brilliant cousin last night. I found that I could not compose a woman to love me without making her mad.
“Cousin”, he said, “you have lately allowed yourself to be occupied by this woman”. I trembled excessively as I listened to him. I suspected if he has been reading my text messages or emails or is he sincerely guessing. I imagined him looking down upon me as a weak man trapped by an innocent woman. Am I destined to become the guy all the boys make their reference whenever they are talking about women? I wondered. I well knew that I have never mentioned anything to anyone. I kept everything to myself. A sense of pride crept on my body. I wasn’t going to let anyone know that I am falling for this girl again. He continued, “I have observed the state of your mind being preyed on by that woman. It’s okay to be in love. Each one of us has been through that, but I want to let you know that women like a challenge. Do not ever let them have everything they want from you. They will test your strength and weakness. In fact I want you to ignore her calls and messages for the next three weeks. This will make her heart fonder for your presence”. My eyes wandered like a lost child’s eye in the wild. This has puzzled me strangely. How am I going to ignore my weakness? Burger! I said, doesn’t he know that my feeling has tendered to the extent that I can’t sleep without hearing her voice for two days?
I have always admired the beauty and the intellect of women. My spirit is always elevated by a well rounded woman. This girl has ruffled my spirit. The expression of my sentiment for her might make you believe that she is the only woman on earth, but the reality of the matter is, she isn’t. Fear and agitation haunt me whenever I am with her. Last night I wanted to break the ice to her and profess my feeling, but my conscious stopped me from that. I have burned the raged to pursue the truth to her. A dreaded suspense has warned me time and again that if I don’t act now, she might pursue other men. I do not doubt that she got hit on by men every day. Why am I so vicious and powerful in the real life and so weak when it is concerned with the matters of this woman? I have created a rational fantasy in my life which I am bound to pursue!
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